I never really thought of it until recently when I made an inventory of who I was, who I am, and who I want to be. There were things that got in the way, such as a nasty divorce, moving 5 states away from the person who terrorized me. My "aha!" moment came when I was flipping through some pictures of my girls. What did it take to make me happy and no longer fearful?, what did it take to boost my spirits every day despite where I have been?
I needed to live spherically. What does that mean? I have heard of it before but never really thought about its meaning. It means, to know what is behind you, what is in front of you and what is next to you. In a way, its like situational awareness. Know whats going on around you. For me, it meant knowing that my divorce was behind me and all the rotten things he did to me. It meant knowing that what's in front of me is my future and all the plans I have made, and lastly whats next to me. I have a new husband, my children, and people who love me.
These are all things that I can't neglect nor turn from because on either side of me, I have things that support me, that keep me going. If I lose any of these things that support me, I fall down.
I have a tattoo on my back that is of a compass rose, its meaning to me was that I always know where Im going and never get lost..I have a guide (although I have to look in the mirror to see it) I know that it's there.
Many times, I have found myself thinking I was lost until I realized....no...dummy.....you know exactly where you are. Thinking tends to curb panic.
So, if ever, I was to give advice, it would be to live spherically. It puts so many things into context. You don't worry about the small stuff.
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